My boyfriend is the sweetest, meanest individual alive.
Why, you may ask? Well, let me tell you... Saturday, the 13th, was mine and Patrick's three months. Patrick usually comes home like...every weekend, and I assumed this weekend was no different. Boy, I was wrong. Sort of. He tricked me into believing that he was going dirt bike riding with his friend and her family instead of coming home. I was PISSED, y'all. Like, beyond mad. It was bad.
I get really mean when I'm angry, whether I mean to or not. I wasn't mean to him in a sense of telling him how awful he was or that I hated him or anything, but I was very careful in my words. The few words I DID say, including my lack of words, probably made him feel worse than I felt. And I really regret that now.
He plotted together with 4 of my closest friends, and my mom, so nobody would make plans with me. My mom told me that her and I were going out to dinner and then shopping after work. I walk in my house and I talk to her and she kept encouraging me to go change my clothes. I walked in my room, and Patrick was sitting there and he said, "Happy three months." I almost pissed myself and said a few choice words. I did not expect him there. He then took me out and we had an amazing night :)
The moral of this story is that Patrick is still the most amazing guy ever. The little things he does for me are incredible. He lied to me and stuck through me being mega-bitch all to see a huge smile on my face. And it was totally worth it. He is absolutely perfect. I couldn't ask for a better boyfriend in my life.
I am the luckiest girl alive. :)
xoxo, Liv
Monday, July 15, 2013
Saturday, July 6, 2013
sunshine amidst rain
In the midst of a never-ending rain streak, positivity is scarce. I know everyone else in Cle-vegas feels the same. It's so hard to smile and actually want to get out of the house. The rain is just like...hypnotizing. All I want to do is sleep and sleep and sleep. But, sometimes you have to find some sunshine!
My sunshine for this dreary week is my life. I know that sounds kind of weird and conceited or something along those lines, but I really don't mean it like that. I mean it in a sense that I am lucky. Even though my surroundings are dark and gloomy, I have enough blessings to make my life seem like a day on the beach, which is exactly where I wish I was. But, in all reality, I'm so lucky. I have so many great things. I have great friends, a great mother, and a great boyfriend. Not to mention all of the great opportunities that are ahead of me!
I'm not going to ramble on about every single one of those things, but I am going to ramble on about my boyfriend a little bit. Patrick is amazing. I don't get to see him half as much as I would love to, but he makes every second worth the wait. The way we mesh is crazy good. I know that a couple who gets along perfectly 100% of the time doesn't exist, but we're pretty darn close. He just makes me happy. Its so simple, yet so true. He does sweet little things and every single one of them means the world to me! The way he knows me so well is incredible. In the span of a lifetime, I've been with him for a very short amount of time. But, I feel like we've known each other forever. Here's a really cute photo collage of him. Hopefully it'll make you smile half as much as he makes me smile.
My sunshine for this dreary week is my life. I know that sounds kind of weird and conceited or something along those lines, but I really don't mean it like that. I mean it in a sense that I am lucky. Even though my surroundings are dark and gloomy, I have enough blessings to make my life seem like a day on the beach, which is exactly where I wish I was. But, in all reality, I'm so lucky. I have so many great things. I have great friends, a great mother, and a great boyfriend. Not to mention all of the great opportunities that are ahead of me!
I'm not going to ramble on about every single one of those things, but I am going to ramble on about my boyfriend a little bit. Patrick is amazing. I don't get to see him half as much as I would love to, but he makes every second worth the wait. The way we mesh is crazy good. I know that a couple who gets along perfectly 100% of the time doesn't exist, but we're pretty darn close. He just makes me happy. Its so simple, yet so true. He does sweet little things and every single one of them means the world to me! The way he knows me so well is incredible. In the span of a lifetime, I've been with him for a very short amount of time. But, I feel like we've known each other forever. Here's a really cute photo collage of him. Hopefully it'll make you smile half as much as he makes me smile.
Alright, the next thing I'm going to ramble on a little bit about is the opportunities that are ahead of me. Mainly college. I'm stoked for college! Even more so now that I got my AP scores back. Good (surprising) news: I passed all of them! I passed my English one with a 4 which gets me out of both of my Freshman english classes. That makes me one very happy scholar. I'm lucky that I'm blessed with brains and intelligence. College won't be a breeze, but I know I'm up for the challenge! One day, when I'm a Nuclear Engineer doing amazing things, I'll look back on this time on my life and be even more thankful!
I could go on and on, but I'm not going to. Just know that when its dark and dreary, you need to stay positive! It's a hard thing to do, but I promise that every single person has something to light up their world. Just take a second and find it. :)
xoxo, Liv
Tuesday, July 2, 2013
life of a doormat
Tonight I did something stupid.
It wasn't really something extreme, and it probably doesn't even matter in the huge scheme of life, but I feel worthless.
I'm not even going to really go into detail, but have you ever sent a text message and then just thought, "Why did I send that?"...yeah, I was living that life.
I didn't even have bad intentions..I promise. And I didn't come out of it doing anything bad either, so don't get the wrong idea! I didn't say anything that wasn't true or say anything that was mean, and I wasn't unfaithful by any means! But, I did say what was on my mind. And it probably should have stayed on my mind..
That's the thing about me: most things that are on my mind should stay there..and for good reason! Not because they're mean, but they usually dig a hole. The only thing I wanted to do tonight was make peace. I didn't want to create a friendship. I didn't want someone to think I was crawling back to them. I didn't want to make someone feel worthless. I just wanted peace. I wanted to gain respect from someone that I thought owed me some respect. I guess he doesn't really owe me anything though. And he had no problem telling me that...well, that and other things I didn't really want to hear.
Break-ups are never fun y'all. I really just wanted to have a civil aura between me and a certain person. But, that will apparently never be achieved. Instead, I will continue to be a "doormat" as he called me, and move on with my life. You know why I'll move on? Because I'm happy.
I'm the type of person that hates negativity. If I think that someone thinks poorly of me, I will do what I can to change that, regardless of who the person is. I want people to think good things about me, because I always try hard. I always try to be a good, loving person. If anyone sees anything but that...there's a problem. And there WAS a problem.
Did I fix it? No.
Did I try? Yes.
And that's all that matters. My part is done, and I know that I did what I could to be the caring person that I truly am.
Thankfully I have my sweet boy, Patrick, to lift my spirits and remind me of the person I truly am. Everyone needs someone to bring out the best in them.
xoxo, Liv
It wasn't really something extreme, and it probably doesn't even matter in the huge scheme of life, but I feel worthless.
I'm not even going to really go into detail, but have you ever sent a text message and then just thought, "Why did I send that?"...yeah, I was living that life.
I didn't even have bad intentions..I promise. And I didn't come out of it doing anything bad either, so don't get the wrong idea! I didn't say anything that wasn't true or say anything that was mean, and I wasn't unfaithful by any means! But, I did say what was on my mind. And it probably should have stayed on my mind..
That's the thing about me: most things that are on my mind should stay there..and for good reason! Not because they're mean, but they usually dig a hole. The only thing I wanted to do tonight was make peace. I didn't want to create a friendship. I didn't want someone to think I was crawling back to them. I didn't want to make someone feel worthless. I just wanted peace. I wanted to gain respect from someone that I thought owed me some respect. I guess he doesn't really owe me anything though. And he had no problem telling me that...well, that and other things I didn't really want to hear.
Break-ups are never fun y'all. I really just wanted to have a civil aura between me and a certain person. But, that will apparently never be achieved. Instead, I will continue to be a "doormat" as he called me, and move on with my life. You know why I'll move on? Because I'm happy.
I'm the type of person that hates negativity. If I think that someone thinks poorly of me, I will do what I can to change that, regardless of who the person is. I want people to think good things about me, because I always try hard. I always try to be a good, loving person. If anyone sees anything but that...there's a problem. And there WAS a problem.
Did I fix it? No.
Did I try? Yes.
And that's all that matters. My part is done, and I know that I did what I could to be the caring person that I truly am.
Thankfully I have my sweet boy, Patrick, to lift my spirits and remind me of the person I truly am. Everyone needs someone to bring out the best in them.
xoxo, Liv
college
I haven't blogged in a good while.. I apologize to the like...two people that read this!
If you're interested in the rest of my New Orleans trip: ask me. I'll post something if people care.. But I got so busy that I didn't have time to post then and there!
This post, however, is going to be about my future...my college, future that is.
Ya'll...I'm so excited. And so stinking nervous at the same time. It's easy to be confident and say that everything is going to work beautifully for me and that I'm smart so I'll ace everything and that people will love me...but I could be wrong. I could be very wrong.
What if I flunk?
What if people think I'm weird?
What if I get caught up in the wrong crowd and then I don't even know who I really am anymore?
So many things haunt me. But, I'm ready for change. I'm ready to face the world of Knoxville. Stepping outside the safety net of Cleveland that has been my home for the past 18 years of my life is so invigorating. It's the kind of scary that's needed. Good scary. Everyone needs to see the world, and even though Knoxville is only right down the road, it's still different. People have different views and there's a substantial amount of variety! Variety makes me a happy girl. I can't wait to meet new people and broaden the types of friends that I have around. Hopefully others will feel the way I do! I'm sure I'm not the only one scared of making friends though.
My studies terrify me. Who wouldn't be terrified of nuclear engineering? Frankly, it's a terrifying thing to even say! Hopefully I won't lose my ambition or love of learning. Hopefully I'll continue to thrive in my intelligence, and I'll be successful whereever I end up...whether it be nuclear engineering or somewhere else!
In a nutshell, I'm so ready for college. I'm ready to grow up and see what the world has to offer.
Goodbye, Cleveland.
Hello, Knoxville.
Well...in a month that is. :)
xoxo, Liv
If you're interested in the rest of my New Orleans trip: ask me. I'll post something if people care.. But I got so busy that I didn't have time to post then and there!
This post, however, is going to be about my future...my college, future that is.
Ya'll...I'm so excited. And so stinking nervous at the same time. It's easy to be confident and say that everything is going to work beautifully for me and that I'm smart so I'll ace everything and that people will love me...but I could be wrong. I could be very wrong.
What if I flunk?
What if people think I'm weird?
What if I get caught up in the wrong crowd and then I don't even know who I really am anymore?
So many things haunt me. But, I'm ready for change. I'm ready to face the world of Knoxville. Stepping outside the safety net of Cleveland that has been my home for the past 18 years of my life is so invigorating. It's the kind of scary that's needed. Good scary. Everyone needs to see the world, and even though Knoxville is only right down the road, it's still different. People have different views and there's a substantial amount of variety! Variety makes me a happy girl. I can't wait to meet new people and broaden the types of friends that I have around. Hopefully others will feel the way I do! I'm sure I'm not the only one scared of making friends though.
My studies terrify me. Who wouldn't be terrified of nuclear engineering? Frankly, it's a terrifying thing to even say! Hopefully I won't lose my ambition or love of learning. Hopefully I'll continue to thrive in my intelligence, and I'll be successful whereever I end up...whether it be nuclear engineering or somewhere else!
In a nutshell, I'm so ready for college. I'm ready to grow up and see what the world has to offer.
Goodbye, Cleveland.
Hello, Knoxville.
Well...in a month that is. :)
xoxo, Liv
Wednesday, June 5, 2013
new orleans: take four!
I swear today felt like the longest day of my life...but not in a bad way! We started our day off with a meal at this cute little place across from our hotel. It was called The Ruby Slipper. It's just a breakfast/brunch/lunch place and it looks like a little hole in the wall, but it was SO delicious. I had a really yummy caprese sandwich with a side salad. The dressing on the salad was like house specialty. It was some type of creole tomato something-or-other. But good golly, it was yummy.
After lunch we went and took a bus tour all around the city. New Orleans is so big. Like...I knew it was a decent sized city, but there's so much to it! So much! We sat on the top level of a double decker bus and got to listen to a bunch of historical fun facts and see so many different things. We got to see the garden district and the really cool cemeteries. We got to see all of the nooks and crannies and cute restaurants and boutiques and everything. It was really neat. When we got off the bus, the bus driver gave us beads so that was also really awesome!
After the bus ride my mom and grandmother went back to the casino...go figure. Becca and I then headed towards the French Quarter and made a stop at Café Du Monde. Of course we got beignets, and we both got chocolate milk to go along with it. It was like a funnel cake on crack aka the best thing I've ever ingested. I kind of felt 500 pounds afterwards though... But we won't go there. From Café Du Monde we headed to Foot Locker and bought some new Norts. Norts make me love my life and inspire me to work out so that was good for today!
When we got back to the hotel my mom and grandmother were ready for dinner. We had intended on going to this Italian place. We took a trolley and everything....and the restaurant was shut down. Our luck. So we walked a little farther and found this adorable little café. I don't even remember the name of it, but it was wonderful! I wasn't really hungry at all, but I got an Arnold Palmer (my fave) and some tomato crab bisque. They meshed perfectly and it was seriously the perfect dinner. Then we walked to a froyo place! But I was way too full for froyo so Becca got to enjoy that one! Then we headed back to our room.
I put legs to my inspiration and followed up my day with a run. A run. Me. ....I don't run. Ever. But I'm glad I did! I feel really good now. Even though it was on a treadmill, I ran a mile and a half straight through. That's a huge accomplishment for me! Even though that seems minute, it was like climbing a mountain. I can remember when I used to be able to run like 3 miles...not anymore! But I was really proud of myself, even if it kicked my butt.
Now, here I am. Blogging about my fourth day in this beautiful city. I love it here and part of me never wants to leave! However, it's taking a toll on my body. I'm exhausted. But I love it. So I'm going to keep exhausting myself and save the sleeping for home sweet home! Two more full days, New Orleans....bring it on!
Enjoy more pitchaaaaaas.
xoxo, Liv
After lunch we went and took a bus tour all around the city. New Orleans is so big. Like...I knew it was a decent sized city, but there's so much to it! So much! We sat on the top level of a double decker bus and got to listen to a bunch of historical fun facts and see so many different things. We got to see the garden district and the really cool cemeteries. We got to see all of the nooks and crannies and cute restaurants and boutiques and everything. It was really neat. When we got off the bus, the bus driver gave us beads so that was also really awesome!
After the bus ride my mom and grandmother went back to the casino...go figure. Becca and I then headed towards the French Quarter and made a stop at Café Du Monde. Of course we got beignets, and we both got chocolate milk to go along with it. It was like a funnel cake on crack aka the best thing I've ever ingested. I kind of felt 500 pounds afterwards though... But we won't go there. From Café Du Monde we headed to Foot Locker and bought some new Norts. Norts make me love my life and inspire me to work out so that was good for today!
When we got back to the hotel my mom and grandmother were ready for dinner. We had intended on going to this Italian place. We took a trolley and everything....and the restaurant was shut down. Our luck. So we walked a little farther and found this adorable little café. I don't even remember the name of it, but it was wonderful! I wasn't really hungry at all, but I got an Arnold Palmer (my fave) and some tomato crab bisque. They meshed perfectly and it was seriously the perfect dinner. Then we walked to a froyo place! But I was way too full for froyo so Becca got to enjoy that one! Then we headed back to our room.
I put legs to my inspiration and followed up my day with a run. A run. Me. ....I don't run. Ever. But I'm glad I did! I feel really good now. Even though it was on a treadmill, I ran a mile and a half straight through. That's a huge accomplishment for me! Even though that seems minute, it was like climbing a mountain. I can remember when I used to be able to run like 3 miles...not anymore! But I was really proud of myself, even if it kicked my butt.
Now, here I am. Blogging about my fourth day in this beautiful city. I love it here and part of me never wants to leave! However, it's taking a toll on my body. I'm exhausted. But I love it. So I'm going to keep exhausting myself and save the sleeping for home sweet home! Two more full days, New Orleans....bring it on!
Enjoy more pitchaaaaaas.
xoxo, Liv
Monday, June 3, 2013
day threeeeee: new orleans style
Ohhhh, day three. I am feeling it. I love vacations, y'all, don't get me wrong! But they tire me out! I feel like there is no such thing as a relaxing vacation. To me, "relaxing vacation" is SUCH an oxymoron...but I suppose everyone is different.
Anyways, I started my day today with some good, old-fashioned cardio! Well, I used an elliptical so I guess it really wasn't old-fashioned, but you know. Starting my day out with a work out was much more pleasurable than ending my day with a workout, so that was good! It kicked my butt and then I sat in the sauna and sweated even more for a solid 20 minutes! After my morning workout I came back and got ready for the day.
Today was hella hot. Like nasty, dripping sweat hot. Me, my mom, and Becca walked around Jackson Square and the French Market. I bought more stuff...go figure. I'm 99.9% sure I have a shopping addiction, but we'll get into that later. Most of the stuff was legitimate junk. Like flea market junk. But we did encounter a really neat female artist! She painted cute little quotes on stuff and I was in stereotypical white girl heaven! We then had lunch at Margaritaville which is ALWAYS a win. After walking around the market and eating the best burger of my life, we made our way to an old convent. Nuns freak me out. Yes, I'm catholic. Yes, they're admired in the catholic faith. No, I do not like them. They are scary and just...augh. I don't really know what "augh" means, but it fit. Luckily there were no nuns in the convent because I probably would have pissed myself. However, there was a nice little vampire ghost story that went along with it! If you're interested, read this blog post:
Vampire Ghost Story
After that we went into this massive cathedral and my mom lit a candle for my grandfather, so that was nice. Right outside the cathedral there was a cute little brass group playing! They were so good. Jazz music makes my heart smile more than anything else. We then headed back to the hotel and proceeded to take a good little nap while my mom and grandma hit up the casino. When they got back it was time for some more exploration. We went down Bourbon Street. Oh my. It was slightly terrifying/scarring/all things disgusting. We passed like 439248 porn stripper whatever places. I don't like to see female bodies like that. Ew. We also witnessed a dog who was trained to play dead, a fairly attractive male playing guitar, and the jazz band we watched earlier conjoined with some saxophones! The tenor player kicked some serious br-ass. Haha, get it? Oooookay.. We then decided to find some frozen drinks and an appetizer because we weren't really hungry. We went to House of Blues again and were faced with some major disappointment when we were told that they didn't have a blender. Alas, we had to forgo the frozen drinks, but we DID get some delicious jerk chicken wings. They were yummy and then we went back to the hotel.
Today was SO long. We got a lot in though. It was super fun and I feel like I got a taste of some true New Orleans culture! I'm excited to see what the rest of my week holds.
Enjoy more pictchas!
xoxo, Liv
Anyways, I started my day today with some good, old-fashioned cardio! Well, I used an elliptical so I guess it really wasn't old-fashioned, but you know. Starting my day out with a work out was much more pleasurable than ending my day with a workout, so that was good! It kicked my butt and then I sat in the sauna and sweated even more for a solid 20 minutes! After my morning workout I came back and got ready for the day.
Today was hella hot. Like nasty, dripping sweat hot. Me, my mom, and Becca walked around Jackson Square and the French Market. I bought more stuff...go figure. I'm 99.9% sure I have a shopping addiction, but we'll get into that later. Most of the stuff was legitimate junk. Like flea market junk. But we did encounter a really neat female artist! She painted cute little quotes on stuff and I was in stereotypical white girl heaven! We then had lunch at Margaritaville which is ALWAYS a win. After walking around the market and eating the best burger of my life, we made our way to an old convent. Nuns freak me out. Yes, I'm catholic. Yes, they're admired in the catholic faith. No, I do not like them. They are scary and just...augh. I don't really know what "augh" means, but it fit. Luckily there were no nuns in the convent because I probably would have pissed myself. However, there was a nice little vampire ghost story that went along with it! If you're interested, read this blog post:
Vampire Ghost Story
After that we went into this massive cathedral and my mom lit a candle for my grandfather, so that was nice. Right outside the cathedral there was a cute little brass group playing! They were so good. Jazz music makes my heart smile more than anything else. We then headed back to the hotel and proceeded to take a good little nap while my mom and grandma hit up the casino. When they got back it was time for some more exploration. We went down Bourbon Street. Oh my. It was slightly terrifying/scarring/all things disgusting. We passed like 439248 porn stripper whatever places. I don't like to see female bodies like that. Ew. We also witnessed a dog who was trained to play dead, a fairly attractive male playing guitar, and the jazz band we watched earlier conjoined with some saxophones! The tenor player kicked some serious br-ass. Haha, get it? Oooookay.. We then decided to find some frozen drinks and an appetizer because we weren't really hungry. We went to House of Blues again and were faced with some major disappointment when we were told that they didn't have a blender. Alas, we had to forgo the frozen drinks, but we DID get some delicious jerk chicken wings. They were yummy and then we went back to the hotel.
Today was SO long. We got a lot in though. It was super fun and I feel like I got a taste of some true New Orleans culture! I'm excited to see what the rest of my week holds.
Enjoy more pictchas!
xoxo, Liv
new orleans lovin': day two!
Becca and I took day two of New Orleans by storm. Take that how you wish considering it was pouring of rain...... Okay, but really. Our second day here was pretty awesome!
We woke up this morning and lounged around for like ever. Mostly because it was pouring, but partly because we're lazy as all get out. Once we finally got ready, my mom and grandma pranced off to the casino leaving Becca and I to fend for ourselves in the city. It was a tough life full of crazies, but we made it. Actually, we didn't encounter any crazies during the first part of our day: we spent it...SHOPPING. Ah, yes. Glorious city shopping. I could literally spend thousands of dollars here and I would LOVE my life. L. O. V. E. Lovelovelovelovelove it. I really actually just love shopping and buying new things and spending money and then basking in the glory of all my new items! Sometimes thats a problem, but not today! I acquired an adorable pair of shorts and an orange/white tank from this super cute boutique. They were having a sale that you seriously couldn't turn down. Then we went to Urban Outfitters and I got another super cute pair of shorts, and tank top, and a little bandeau thingy to put underneath it! All of these purchases made me feel happy inside, but none of them made me feel as happy as the things I bought for my sweet boy! I got him a Mumford and Sons record, a guitar pick, and a t-shirt from the House of Blues! I also got myself a t-shirt from House of Blues and a sticker for my computer. :)
House of Blues was so amazing. They played great music and the architecture was so awesome! I got lobster macaroni and cheese for dinner. It was like a 5 year old's heaven for an 18 year old. It was seriously so delicious. For lunch, we ate at Huck Finn's cafe...or something like that. They had these awesome fried pickles: bread and butter pickles fried in a jalepeño batter. I could've eaten them all day and not felt guilty. Maybe I would've felt guilty when I hit that 400 pound mark, but I like to pretend sometimes that I'm invincible up against food. But for real y'all, they were good good stuff. I also had an alligator po boy. I'm glad to know that alligators are good for something besides eating peoples heads off. They taste really good, too.
That pretty much sums up my day two....shopping and eating. But then again, that kind of sums up my life, doesn't it? Oh well! No shame.
Here are some pictures to show my New Orleans lovin'.
xoxo, Liv
We woke up this morning and lounged around for like ever. Mostly because it was pouring, but partly because we're lazy as all get out. Once we finally got ready, my mom and grandma pranced off to the casino leaving Becca and I to fend for ourselves in the city. It was a tough life full of crazies, but we made it. Actually, we didn't encounter any crazies during the first part of our day: we spent it...SHOPPING. Ah, yes. Glorious city shopping. I could literally spend thousands of dollars here and I would LOVE my life. L. O. V. E. Lovelovelovelovelove it. I really actually just love shopping and buying new things and spending money and then basking in the glory of all my new items! Sometimes thats a problem, but not today! I acquired an adorable pair of shorts and an orange/white tank from this super cute boutique. They were having a sale that you seriously couldn't turn down. Then we went to Urban Outfitters and I got another super cute pair of shorts, and tank top, and a little bandeau thingy to put underneath it! All of these purchases made me feel happy inside, but none of them made me feel as happy as the things I bought for my sweet boy! I got him a Mumford and Sons record, a guitar pick, and a t-shirt from the House of Blues! I also got myself a t-shirt from House of Blues and a sticker for my computer. :)
House of Blues was so amazing. They played great music and the architecture was so awesome! I got lobster macaroni and cheese for dinner. It was like a 5 year old's heaven for an 18 year old. It was seriously so delicious. For lunch, we ate at Huck Finn's cafe...or something like that. They had these awesome fried pickles: bread and butter pickles fried in a jalepeño batter. I could've eaten them all day and not felt guilty. Maybe I would've felt guilty when I hit that 400 pound mark, but I like to pretend sometimes that I'm invincible up against food. But for real y'all, they were good good stuff. I also had an alligator po boy. I'm glad to know that alligators are good for something besides eating peoples heads off. They taste really good, too.
That pretty much sums up my day two....shopping and eating. But then again, that kind of sums up my life, doesn't it? Oh well! No shame.
Here are some pictures to show my New Orleans lovin'.
xoxo, Liv
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